RIP Brittany Murphy

"facing death is gonna change everything". we will never know when where death will come to take us, butof course theres sign when and where death will come. every person in this world will never know when where they will die. but people that got cancer and HIV/AIDS they've got their age estimate, but they never know when they die, cause there is a miracle. well, the point is you will never know when and where you die, and you will never know when and where people will die except you kill them -__-.

that is what BRITTANY MURPHY's family facing now, on (20/12) Sharon, Brittany Murphy's mother was found brittany murphy collapsing on the bathroom. she die on her 32 years age. so sad :(. Los Angeles Assistant Coroner Chief Ed Winter said Murphy's death appears to be from natural causes. Illness could be a contributing factor to her death, but that it will be weeks before a final determination is made, Winter said. He said toxicology tests also would be performed, but the results won't be available for six to eight weeks. Winter said prescription medications were taken from Murphy's home and officials will contact her personal physician to get a better sense of her medical history. Meanwhile, Murphy's family told Los Angeles officials the actress was ill with flu-like symptoms in the days before her death at age 32.

May she rest in peace down there, to her family i am so so so sorry to hear that and i hope that you know that god have design this, god have plan this before you are born. so, i hope that you can faced this with your opened heart, you have to start to letting go.

hmm

I AM ADDICTED TO ...

PAUL FRANK =D

paul frank ? huh ? i couldnt believe it too either. i dont why i like it, i just like it haha. PAUL FRANK PAUL FRANK. haha :p, well the point is im not addicted to it at all haha, like im absolutely not going to turns to be monkey, i really do hope so. AAMIIN !!, i like monkey as a doll, not an animal. but i describe my self as monkey attitude. greedy on food, lots of movement, witty, and unique. HAHA :P

DEMAM MONYET

i dont know this is a good news or a bad news but right now i kinda actually obsessed with monkey haha :p. gatau nih, suka aja liat monyet haha, face do-nya itu lucu banget haha. gue sih sebenarnya mau beli boneka monyet yang warna baby blue. tapi gatau nih gue, bakalan dapat apa ga bonekanya haha. jadi kan tadi gue jalan bareng teman teman,ngunjungin sekolah dulu yang lamaa. YAYASAN SEKOLAH ISLAM ATHIRAH. nah uda itu kan, gue pergi ke mall panakukang, berjalan jalan ria. karaoke-an haha. gila gilaan lahh haha. nah, dapet deh gue boneka monyet di strawberry, lucuuu lagi yauda deh gue ambil haha.

belum gue namain sih haha. tapi gue masih mikir sih nama boneka gue ini apaan haha, yang jelas dia bakalan nemenin gue di dw haha. gue sempat kepikiran namanya gebetan gue tapi males ahh haha. yauda deng, ntar ahh. nah, gue tadi juga baru beli mug, nah yang gue suka dari mug itu karena mugnya itu warna biru muda or i called baby blue. nah the more i like it because theres a monkey pics in it haha.

nah sebenarnya gambarnya ga di satu sisi, tapi di semua sisi haha.jadi lucu menurut gue gambarnya hahaha. kayaknya cuma ini deh posting gue kali ini haha. BYEE BLOG !!

Gravity-Sara Bareilles

"Gravity"

Something always brings me back to you.
It never takes too long.
No matter what I say or do 

I'll still feel you here 'til the moment I'm gone.

You hold me without touch.
You keep me without chains.
I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your reign.

Set me free, leave me be. 

I don't want to fall another moment into your gravity.
Here I am and I stand so tall, just the way I'm supposed to be.
But you're on to me and all over me.

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile.
When I thought that I was strong.
But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

[CHORUS]

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see that you're everything I think I need here on
The ground.
But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.
The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down 

i dont know why, i really do love this song hihi

This Saturday =D

  UAS is so over baby, haha noe we could go around wherever we wanted to, haha we are free. kemarin gue ke sency bareng yang lain, gue pertama yang dateng, sambil nunggu, gue window shopping like i always did. akhirnya indah dan ika dateng juga (FINALLY!!). nah udah gitu kita berdua berjalan jalan ria, dan singgah di starbuck, sesampainya di starbuck, kita pilih minum "caramel mocca", such a woow. i looove it !

  

mhhhm i really ddo like this one, with whipped cream in the top of it. thats what i called, Heaven on the World haha. so, habis ini fadhil fadel safwan dateng, dengan membawa sesuatu yang aneh, 2 BUAH WALKIE TALKIE, aneh gila dan wow. hihi, dan gue coba kan. sangatlah ajaiiiiiiib bin ajaiiiiiiiiiiib. haha, udah gitu kan kita nongkrong di starbuck dulu terus jalan jalan hangout di sency, dan nonton OLD DOGS.

  haha such a hilarious movie, seru banget filmnya. bikin gue ngakak abis sumpaah ya, tapi kata fadhil, "filmnya jayuuus banget". mhhm dia itu tipe orang yang sangatlah susah buat ketawa ngakak hihi. terus udah nonton itu, kita nyebrang ke Plasa Senayan, jalan jalan kan terus kita misah, jadi gue pake walkie talkie yang satu dan gue yang satu hihi.

  udah gitu, di plaza senayan kita ketemu ka vina dan ka fathia, serta ka rezky haha, kita bcandaan main main ria. dan gue autis autisan haha. udah gitu, indah dan ika pergi ke pim, dan gue monic fadhil fadel safwan, tetap aja main di ps dan sency berautisan haha. sampai gitu, kita nyebrang lagi ke sency, dan ke TGA, nyari TEENVOGUE HANDBOOK

  

  you know what i always admired about this book, it is so fashionista haha. i loove it, i could learn all about fashion in this book you know. but unfortunate, i could found it. gue ke peripus, TGA, gramedia. semuaanya bilang gada, -____-. finally, after that kita ke SoHo dektanya XXI sency, nongkrong disitu. but, karena gue stres banget (PRIVATE PROBLEM!!), gue nangis, mata gue badan gue lemas semua. ka vina, monic udah berusaha tenangin gue, tapi tetap aja ga tenang hati gue. jadi udah, monic pulang. dan gue nyusul pulang. gue tinggal sendirian di apartemen, dan gue juga pusing banget kan, jadi yaudah gue langsung tidur. besoknya, gue ke pim, terus pulang ke dw.

NB.

  fadhil mau banget fotonya gue masukkin blog gue, jadi yaudah ini foto candidnya yang di ambil di J.Co Donuts and Cofee haha, you gonna love this

hik hik

G U E   C A P E K !!

IM GIVING UP, I THINK THATS THE BEST !!

Wednesday

  such a wooow banget hari rabu ini deh, kan hari rabu ini kita ujian praktek olahraga, jadi kan cewek ceweknya pada umumnya udah menyelesaikan ujian praktek KEMPO !. haha. nah maka pada hari rabu ini, kita sangatlah free untuk berbuat apapun hihi. yaudah, gue dan safwan berencana mau bermain basket, tapi ga jadi, karena gue tertarik dengan main futsal hihi. nah di lapangan futsal ada banyak orang, narro pical iman zaki rangga bima dkk. nah gue sebenarnya cewek sendiri yang mau main -,-. tapi yaudah deh karena fun juga hihi. nah udah, udah mulai bagi tim nih, udah mulai hitung 1-selesai,nah udah kan, tapi narro masih nanya gue, "beneran mau main ?, lo cewe abisnya", -.-, yaudah gue bilang "iya beneran, gapapa kok hihi". udah gitu, yang mulai hitung, gue dapet nomor 13 urutannya, nah tau taunya genap 16, yaudah di bagi jadi 4 tim. mulai menghitung untuk bagi tim, eheh gue dapet tim 4, sama bima bismo rangga odi hihi. haha kita pertama main, sumpah ya gue ga main sama sekali, gue mainnya cuma nendang bola sekaliu, itupun nendangnya ga keras ckckck -.- haha, but it is fun lahh, gue teriak teriak terus di lapangan haha, abisnya gue ga dapet bola haha. udah gitu kan, tim gue kalah 1-0 hik hik. haha tapi happy lahh haha.

  gue main cuma beberapa kali doang, terus naik ke lapangan basket, nah terus yang paling gila, gue di tarik sama obet supaya nyebur di kolam berenang, tapi gue ga mau hihi. nah gilanya, obet naik ke tangga tangga dekat tiang semy-indoor, dan duduk di atas tiangnya, SUMPAH GUE TAKUT BANGET DISITU !, gue teriak, eh tau taunya andra baskara nyusul naik, gue tambah teriak karena gue takut ntar mereka kenapa kenapa, kan kasian kalo mereka encok atau patah tulang, eh udah itu fajar nyusul lagi naik, yaudah disitu gue udah marah, gue udah ga mau urusin mereka, gue balik badan, like what ? pas gue balik badan ke mereka, fajar gelantungan di atas tangga, SUMPAH GUE MERINDING TAKUT DISITU !, gue teriakin mereka semua buat turun, tapi gada yang dengerin gue, gue ngerengek gue teriak teriak akhirnya mereka turun. huffff o_O.

  udah itu, udah mulai sepi kan, tapi gue males balik aspi, jadi gue main main dulu. haha gue ngeliat cowok cowoknya nyebur kolam berenang, rasanya mau ketawa habis habisan haha. lucu banget mereka haha. udah gitu kan, gue main futsal dulu sama iman rangga pieter hihi, aseeek banget haha.

  haha karena gue juga udah gerah, safwan juga udah nyuruh gue pulang, udah itu gue pulang deh haha. itulah hari rabu yang menyenangkan buat gue.

bandung trip =D

  i thought that going to bandung was not going to be fun. but it is so fun. malemnya after autism that i was made with uci and indah, gue tidur di kamar mereka. dan paginya gue packing, take a shower. finally after that, gue make jeans hitam kaos gambar 'king kong' dan converse biasa hihi.

  first, kita semua ke kantin untuk makan pagi, dan pembagian kelompok bis.dan gue dapet bis 1, bersama dengan monic fadhil fadel safwan baskara sony tomi fajar bima fity andra sonia nanas, dll. it was great on the bus, nyanyi bareng, foto foto lahh, dll. yang paling gue sukai adalah waktu semuanya tidur, dan gue mulai bertingkah jail dengan foto candid semuanya ahaha. nah udah itu, giliran mereka semua bangun, gue yang mau tidur, akhirnya tidur gue ga bisa nyenyak ckckck. nah udah itu kan, masuk ke freeeway road, dan di situ gue nanas mau muter film, gue ngeliat cd, dan kebetulan ada spongebob squarepants, yaudah gue suruh mas supirnya muter filmnya, ada 4 episode, and it is so coooool. gue nonton dan duduk di kursi belakang tomi fajar dan sony, dan mereka tau kalo gue lebay hihi, jadi gue kan nonton dengan sangatlah muka senang dan enjoy it. pas lagunya spongebob di puter, gue nyanyi dengan suara yang cempreng abis sumpah, tomi dan fajar ngeliatin gue dengan muka takjub, yaudah gue nyengir haha.

  sampai di tujuan pertama kita, air terjun apa gitu ga jelas hihi. sampain di situ, tau taunya hujan yaudah hihi. udah itu, gue makan dan beli gelang gelang lucu, gue beli yang sama dengan yan tomi pake, variasi baby pink dan baby blue hihi. 

  udah itu gue sama yang lain pegi ke ciwalk, disitu jalan jalan bareng semuanya, mulai jalan mengelilingi distro distro hihi, main main jail jailan. terus, nongkrong di starbuck, nah waktu mau beli minuman, liat tumbler yang lucu banget, jadi tumblernya itu bisa di design sendiri, hihi. nah udah itu, dapet gratisan minum, yaudah pilih latte caramel, yummy !. udah itu minum bersama, monic andra obet nanas fabre nuke fikri kukuh dan temen nanas. haha udah gitu, karena gue ga nahan duduk, gue keluar main main di ciwalk, jalan jalan ke sana sini sono sini haha. terus udah itu, jam 7 balik ke bis, main main sambil makan strawberry kan di bis. eh lama lama gue ngantuk terus tidur, tapi GA NYENYAK ckckck -_____-. yaudah, sampai gabisa tidur, yaudah main main dengar iPod dll hihi. udah itu sampai di dw, jean langsung ke kamar dan take my beauty sleep hihi.

  

U A S is so over =D

  haha so after one week penyiksaan, WE ARE SO FREE !. like what the hell, gue belajar semalaman, ikut responsi, nge stuck, dll dalam uas tersebut haha. But finally, i am so free. nah yang gue lakuin sekarang after free, yaitu gue main main ke kamar a 2.5, kamar indah monic uci dan mila hehe. gue sebenarnya udah sering main di situ juga sih sejak lama sih hihi. gue mau nunjukkin foto autism gue dan temen temen gue, tapi masalahnya gue online di laptop uci, bukan di laptop gue, gue mau mindahin fotonya tapi gada flashdisk. -____-. ntar coming soon ya =D

  mhhhm jadi sekarang gue duduk, dengan laptop uci di depan gue, sambil men-charge iPod gue, dan sedang memainkan blackberry gemini uci hahaha, biasa ngerjain orang lewat bbm aja haha. gue tadi habis ke masjid, have a little chat dengan temen gue tomi dan sony. tadi dengan autism si fajar tomi dan sony, foto foto yang akhirnya jadi animation gitu, yaudah gue ikutin. tapi punya mereka itu kan kayak gimana ya, kayak si fajar itu mukul si tomi, lalu mukul si sony, terus mereka keroyokan ga jelas hihi di foto itu haha. nah udah itu gue bkin, sumpah yaa punya gue sama indah, C A C A T !. tau ga kenapa ? yang gue mainin itu hidung muka dan kepala indah haha, tapi gue juga wish he was there with me. ckck -.-, kasian ya gue ini haha.

  besok katanya sih mau ke bandung, acara asrama gitu, sumpah yaa gue males banget dahh. gue ga tau, biasanya gue itu excited banget dengan adanya trip ini, ta[i kayaknya gue mikir trip besok itu ga bakalan seru buat gue ckck -,-. ga tau kenapa, cuma tau aja. mendingan gue tinggal di asrama, tidur enak enakan di tempat tidur, dengar iPod, online, posting blogger, nyanyi nyanyi ga jelas, foto foto autism hehe.

  nah sekarang gue ngepost lagi pake laptop gue, nah karena gue nge post di laptop gue, berarti gue bisa dong nunjukkin foto foto autism gue hihi, ini diaa :

  

  so, gue posting lagi nih hehe. postingan gue kali ini tentang love life gue banget, gue suka banget lagu ini, lagu ini nyinggung love life gue banget. gue sukaa banget denger ini lagu, gue search liriknya tapi gue ga pernah notice liriknya, ga pernah memperhatikan liriknya sebaik baiknya,tapi baru hari ini gue denger lagunya, gue cerna. dan what the hell ? love life gue banget.

  My Love - Pixie Lott

Lately, i see, you just think weird of me,
A distance, growing, oh how can this be?
Deported, slowly, and i don't know how to stop this wind,
From blowing, were going, this stuff is fading away

(Nobody knows what i know, yeah i know)
They don't see it, but i feel it
(Without you i never would be strong)
Oh i need ya, oh i need ya!

Your the definition of what i, i would be missing
Ohh, we can make this right,
Don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose your love
I cannot live without you by my side
Take off my love, take this off my mind,
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my love
You are my love, don't wanna lose, my love

Running in circles, a scattered pause, the have so
It aint worth, and this can't work,
Ohhh baby,
See my book, is filled with, too many pages of your memory
Lets finish the story, I never end in sorry

(Nobody knows what i know, yeah i know)
I know you want this as much as me
(Without you i never would be strong)
So come on baby, show me

Your the definition of what i, i would be missing
Ohh, we can make this right,
Don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose your love
I cannot live without you by my side
Take off my love, take this off my mind,
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my love
You are my love, don't wanna lose, my love

You are my love, don't wanna lose, my love

Your love, your kiss, you are the guy,
Your love, that belongs to me and i
Can do what i choose, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my...

Your the definition of what i, i would be missing
Ohh, (my love) we can make this right,
I cannot live without you by my side
Take off my love, take this off my mind,
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my...

Your the definition of what i, i would be missing
Ohh, we can make this right,
Don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose your love
I cannot live without you by my side
Take off my love, take this off my mind,
Too much to let go, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose my love

You are my love, no, don't wanna lose, don't wanna lose
You are my love, don't wanna lose, my love

  nah kata katanya yang menyinggung gue banget itu, " Lately i see, you just think weird of me a distance growing, oh how can this be? ".

B I O L O G Y and G E R M A N

  okay so, postingan gue kali ini lagi tentang biologi. well, gue belajar semalaman seharian kemarin, semuanya belajar biologi semua, ga ada belajar belajar jerman hehe. gue belajar biologi, mulai dari sel ciri ciri mahluk hidup sampai enzym. such a woow, alhamdulillah sih gue bisa sebagian besar haha.

  kalo jerman ?. yaaah, kan udah ulangan biologi gue keluar, membawa catatan dan buku cetak jerman gue, dan keluar. gue sama pieter dan fadhil jalan jalan ntar kan, terus gue masuk ke perpustakaan, tapi karena ramai jadi gue keluar dulu, yaudah pas udah mendingan udah mulai kosong, gue masuk, belajar sendiri deh gue, mulai dari awal, angka angka kosa kata, kata singular plural dll. haha.

  nah udah gitu, masuk kan, gue masuk, dan pas soalnya di bagi, gue nge stuck banget, yang gue pelajarin cuma sedikit doang yang gue pelajarin. -____-. tapi untung karena jerman itu, dari dulu gue ulangan sering aja pake logika, yaudah gue pake dah logika semuanya haha.

  hehe akhirnya sukses deh ulangan gue hari kamis ini haha.

CHEMISTRY !

  maaf ya, gambarnya agak jelek, abisnya udah malem gitu, terus lightnya ga bagus, nah sedangkan handphone gue udah gue kumpulin hehe akhirnya gue ambil dri macpro gue, tapi kan berat jadi ga jadi gue angkat untuk ambil foto doang hehe.

  back to the topic of my post, inilah mess yang gue buat di tempat tidur asrama gue, buat belajar kimia hehe. yang gue butuhin selama belajar itu, pulpy orange, teh panas manis, iPod gue, macpro gue hehe. itulah penyegar otak gue sebenarnya hehe. so, yang gue pelajarin itu mulai dari pemisahan campuran (destilasi), massa atom relatif, kadar larutan, ikatan kimia. boring ? i know trust me. nah, udah gitu gue belajar deh semalaman tentang kurnas dan igcse hehe. nah, udah gitu kan gue udah merasa enough, karena gue takut ga bisa bangun pagi untuk sholat subuh, yaudah gue tidur deh sekitar jam 22.30.

  setiba di sekolah, gue masih belajar tentang kimia kan, gue belajar tentang destilasi di buku cambridge gue. udah gitu, tiba waktu ujian, alhamdulillah gue bisa jawab semuanya, tapi ada beberapa juga sih yang gue sempat ragu ragu hehe, tapi gapapa lah asal udah bisa di jawab dengan keyakinan yang sangat mendalam haha.

 BYEE Blog, gue mau belajar biology dan bahasa jerman. BYEE !